Spurningur: I cant believe this. I seriously worked up all the courage to tell the school nurse abt my sh bcuz i knew she was gonna tell my parents. I had panic attacks almost every nights the days before i was going to her. It was so hard to fall asleep. Then with trembling hands and a heart beating so fast it felt it couldve exploded i went into her. And it took a while but i showed her the cuts. She asked me if i did that to myself and i said yes. She asked me why. I dont know. I dont fucking know why. And btw ive been doing sh for years. I finally worked up the courage. Then we just played a fucking board game and she told me to try not to do it and sent me back to class and said to meet her again in some weeks or days i dont fucking remember.
School nurses are mandatory reporters. I had the impression she was gonna call my parents. I had the impression they would finally know and id finally get some fucking help. NOTHING happened. I just went back to class. Yeah you just expect me to be able to focus after that? Bitch. “Try not to do it!” Mhm. And then when i went to see her again she was kinda fucking weird. Like she was nice and all. But it seemed she had had a bad day and was angry about something but was trying to hide that and act nice and kind. We said hello and stuff. Then she asked “so have you done it again?” AND AGAIN IM SAYING SHE WAS SO NICE SOUNDING LIKE HER VOICE. And then i said yes (cuz fucking obviously like “try not to do it!” Isnt gonna help.) Her tone just dropped or something. It was so weird. She sounded kinda mad or dissapointed but like monotone. And she just said in a mad/dissapointed monotone voice “okay im gonna have to call your parents.” YEAH OKAY. OKAY. YEAH DO THAT NOW. BITCHASS. Why couldnt you just do it the first time? And her voice was also kind of like when a mother says to her child “okay. You kept doing it so now youre getting your phone take. Away.” If yk what i mean. So she did call my mom. My mom was so nice about it i didnt think she would react like that. She was so so so nice, and i wondered why i waited all this time. Then we went to the doctor. Doctor said i should go to a psychologist. Told my mom. And also by the time i was going to the doctor my mom wasnt nice anymore. It was like she just changed completely. She was mad at me. Mad. At. Me. And told me something i still cant get out my head. It was so rude. And now everything is back to normal. Completely. Normal. NOTHINGS changed. My parents didnt even remove my blades or scissors from my room. And of course i havent spoken to a psychologist. Its been a good ass while. Many adults know now. And NOTHINGS!!!!! Been done!!! Isnt that something? I was supposed to speak to the school nurse again. Weeks ago. That hasnt happened either. Nothings been changed. Genuinely. Juat fucking amazing isnt it. Fuck this shit man oh my… If i killed myself thrn theyd probably fucking wished they had done something. But im not gonna kill myself. But what i am gonna do is not trust them again. Not trust this stupid system. Its always “speak to someone!” “Tell someone” “tell an adult in your life then you can get help!” Bitch what help?! And my mom also randomly barges into my room asking “HAVE YOU DONE IT AGAIN?!?!!?!” No i havent. Not to your knowledge. Not in a visible way. So yeah the only thing thats actually changed is that my mom trusts me less and is kinda mad at me for doing it and randomly barges into my room saying “HAVE YOU DONE IT AGAIN?!?!?!”
Idek why im writing to yall you guys dont even fucking help anything and everything just looks ai generated. Do you guys use ai to respond to these???? Are you seriously that fucking irresponsible?